Update #2 Re Fundraiser

There’s still time to donate. I’m almost done with layout, then I finish the index, we proof galleys, I make the cover, and then the book gets printed (about two weeks from now). I put a couple of the book’s graphics into this post.

The fundraiser to cover the cost of producing this book has thus far raised $475, which is not near the money needed. I don’t care. For one thing, I feel so loved by and connected to the folks who made financial contributions. They believed in me. Another reason I don’t care is that the reason most people don’t donate (aside from not having any money) is that they don’t realize publishing entails a whole slew of costs, and that authors are lucky to break even on a project. The final reason I don’t care about how little money has been raised thus far is that I believe in the importance of this book regardless. If need be, I’ll go into debt to cover the major portion of its costs. That is “crazy,” given my meager finances. But I trust my Gods’ll take care of me financially if I do the work that They inspire in me.

But I would prefer this community project be community financed. Please donate. See below.

For you who like hearing about creative process, my latest on this book is: LOL, layout is hard and time intensive. Extra so, because most of this book’s pages have to be laid out individually. Each ornamentation is a different size and shape, and I am usually placing the text along its contours, which requires its page be laid out specifically for it. But I’m proud of the work I’m doing. I think it is gonna look great! Another challenge I feel good about is that, after I laid out the first 10 pages or so, I realized the maximum page count I cld afford to print wld not allow ornamentations to increase page numbers. So what I’ve done is see how each individual page’s words lay out, then fit a graphic to that. (There are a handful of pages with no graphics but most have them.) Sometimes this requires creating ornamentation to fit that space, or building one right there on the page. It is a lot of work but I want this book to be nice to hold and to feel good to look at as you read. This is my first time using a layout program, so next time will be easier. But developing each page is a trip, I’ve even used some of the graphics behind the print, like a watermark. Sometimes, that meant doing a page over and over til the print was still easy to read. Eg, I’d keep moving and/or resizing a graphic til its more dense parts were not behind any words. I’m enjoying making the text, ornamentations, and the bit of calligraphy all work together. Creating is the bomb!

About the Final Project:

There will be a limited 1st edition printing—each copy numbered —of about 300 copies. (I doubt I’ll manage a second printing.)

I’m happy to return to my roots and produce a chapbook again, though it is an unusual format: a saddle-stitched (center-stapled) spiritual text of (approximately) 72 pages, with old-fashioned black and white ornamentations, which I painted.

The goal is $1200-2600, for printing and other publishing costs, raised within the next few weeks.

I’ll contact donors about whether they choose to be mentioned on the acknowledgement page.

Please support community by supporting this book:

Donate $50. You reserve a numbered copy of this limited first edition printing. Go to www.paypal.com: Use outlawbunny@outlawbunny.com as the Recipients Email.

Donate $100 to reserve two numbered copies of this limited first edition. Plus, I’ll make a talisman channeled especially for you. Go to www.paypal.com: Use outlawbunny@outlawbunny.com as the Recipients Email.

Donate $250 for two early-numbered copies of this limited first edition. Plus a talisman channeled especially for you. I will also paint a digital fantasy portrait of you, or a pet, or a friend, suitable for online viewing as well as for sending to a printer if you want a hard copy. Go to www.paypal.com: Use outlawbunny@outlawbunny.com as the Recipients Email.

Donate $500. Receive two numbered copies, starting with #1, first come first serve. Plus an amulet, digital fantasy portrait, and a copy of The Ecstatic Goddess with a painted cover. Only ten copies of The Ecstatic Goddess—a self-published limited first edition—are still available. The book has a black and white cover, but I painted the cover of four copies. Two books with painted covers are available. This page will say when two people have donated $500, AKA the painted cover option is no longer available. Go to www.paypal.com: Use outlawbunny@outlawbunny.com as the Recipients Email.

Thank you for your supportive, enchanted cameraderie, Francesca De Grandis

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Why This Anarchist Votes

There is so much on the line in our country right now, so I want to share four reasons I voted in the last presidential election (which is when I wrote this piece). They are same reasons I’ll vote this time, too:

Reason 1) I’ll admit that just about the only difference between a Republican and a Democrat is that the latter dresses better. However, my insightful cynicism stops dead in its tracks when I realize another difference: A Democrat in power would help prevent endless numbers of women dying from illegal butcher-job abortions. My anarchist ideology is something to be ashamed of, if I allow a single person to needlessly die just for my rhetoric.

Life before legal abortion was ugly. Finally changing the law banning abortion took an incredibly difficult struggle. Once that hard-won headway is lost, it will take a long time to regain. During that time, many will die.

Reason 2) I’m really an anarchist. So I don’t let ideology (even anarchist ideology!) limit me. Instead, I embrace the power of chaos, which entails using any legal, moral tool that’ll get a job done. Voting is one such tool. To let the poverty of many American citizens continue in the name of anarchy makes a parody of anarchy. I want to live my rhetoric, not just spout it.

Reason 3) I want the power to make a difference. I won’t fall into the trap of thinking, “Since all politicians suck (the government structure sucks, America sucks, the Electoral College idea sucks . . . ), I’ll take a stand by not voting.” That won’t actually give me power. That’s rejecting a power I actually do have. It’s kind of like being four years old and getting so angry and infantile that you pack up your marbles and go home. If I don’t stay in the game, I can’t win. Then Mother Earth dies. Voilá: no home.

Our anger needn’t immobilize us. Healthy, but misapplied, anger can keep people from creating social change. The above is an example: Some Americans, upset by political corruption, feel that not voting is a way to take a stand, a way to say something. As a result, they forsake what power they do have. Unscrupulous politicians are then more likely to win elections and make damaging decisions.

Reason 4) I figured, “Sure, Bush will probably declare some sort of emergency that will necessitate him seated at the oval office desk until his 24-year-old nephew Jeb Bush, Jr. is old enough for the job. Can you say MONARCHY?” However, acting against all odds is the only way any real change has ever happened. Believing in the impossible is a prerequisite for ground-breaking revitalization of a society.

I also felt that I couldn’t risk another president as bad as him just because the odds were good that they’d once again disregard the voters’ choice. We can’t afford to ignore the long shots available. They may be all we have.

And I’ll use any legal, ethical recourse we have–because doing so is the difference between people who just whine and people who save lives.

Why This Anarchist Votes is an excerpt from Share My Insanity: It Improves Everything, available in my online shop, and on Amazon.

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Update Re Fundraiser

Hiya, Only raised $200 so far, but I feel so connected to the folks who donated.

 I will self-publish the book whether I raise enough money or not.

I don’t know how many more books I can publish this lifetime. So if I don’t raise enough $, I’ll borrow it to create the best possible book. E.g., instead of letting funds limit the project in any crucial way, I am going to use the page ornamentations I painted.

I complained to a friend about how challenging this fundraising is. I told her that many people think, “Why should I contribute money when the author will make a bundle?” Fact is, an author is lucky to break even on a book. Actually lucky! Movies depict a fictitious publishing world. For example, a new author receives a $25,000 advance? Wrong! Nowadays, advances are about $2,000, with exceptions like Stephen King or being hired by a corporation to write its history. What’s happening to the economy has impacted every business.

I hope for a profit but it will probably be small, if I even break even. Beverly Macy, executive producer of Gravity Summit TV, said, “Crowd funding is important for innovation, disruption, and causes.”

About the Project:

There will be a limited 1st edition printing, each copy numbered. It will be 50-300 copies, depending on how much money I raise. (I don’t know if I’ll manage a second printing.)

My hope and vision is an unusual format: a wee saddle-stitched (center-stapled) spiritual text with old-fashioned black and white ornamentations—which I have already painted—throughout its pages.

The goal is $1200-2600, for printing and other publishing costs, raised within the next few weeks. I planned to stop fundraising by now but rewrites are, of course, taking longer than expected, then comes layout, so I have a few more weeks to raise money.

Finances aside, I want you to be a part of this because money is a form of community support and trust. Writing from the heart and self-publishing—instead of kowtowing to corporate media—are hard and scary; donations mean I am not alone in this. I need my community.

When fundraising ends, I’ll contact donors about whether they choose to be mentioned on the acknowledgement page.

Fellow mystic travelers, please support a book that supports the wild heart:

Donate $50. You reserve a numbered copy of this limited first edition printing. Go to www.paypal.com: Use outlawbunny@outlawbunny.com as the Recipients Email.

 

 

 

Donate $100 to reserve two numbered copies of this limited first edition. Plus, I’ll make a talisman channeled especially for you. Go to www.paypal.com: Use outlawbunny@outlawbunny.com as the Recipients Email.

 

 

Donate $250 for two early-numbered copies of this limited first edition. Plus a talisman channeled especially for you. I will also paint a digital fantasy portrait of you, or a pet, or a friend, suitable for online viewing as well as for sending to a printer if you want a hard copy. Go to www.paypal.com: Use outlawbunny@outlawbunny.com as the Recipients Email.

Donate $500. Receive two numbered copies, starting with #1, first come first serve. Plus an amulet, digital fantasy portrait, and a copy of The Ecstatic Goddess with a painted cover. Only ten copies of The Ecstatic Goddess—a self-published limited first edition—are still available. The book has a black and white cover, but I painted the cover of four copies. Two books with painted covers are available. This page will say when two people have donated $500, AKA the painted cover option is no longer available. Go to www.paypal.com: Use outlawbunny@outlawbunny.com as the Recipients Email.

Thank you for your support, because I cannot serve my community without my community’s support, Francesca De Grandis

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Shut-In—Virtual Tagging

A shut-in can do virtual tagging.
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These are the times that define us.—Buffy, the Vampire Slayer (of course!)

Heh, tagging by a shut-in. I even had to create a brick wall to tag, LOL. But I loved figuring out how to go about it. I painted 10 layers, bit by bit building a brick effect. (Except for obviously typed words, I paint on the computer screen, the same way one would on canvas, brush stroke by brush stroke.) Being shut-in spurs my creativity.

You can click on the painting to see it large and without the blurring that occurs when WordPress shrinks a pic to fit the page.

My art is on sale at http://etsy.me/6biFY9 : talismanic decorations for your body, home, and spirit.

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I Become Safe

digital painting & text, Francesca De Grandis

I want utter safety. So I surrender to the will of my God. Doing this puts me in the flow of safety my God provides. My God is the World Tree, so I must surrender to all things. When I surrender to all, I become safe.

You can click on the two wee paintings to see them large and without the blurring that occurs when WordPress shrinks a pic to fit the page.

My art is on sale at http://etsy.me/6biFY9 : talismanic decorations for your body, home, and spirit.

 

 

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Fundraiser—New Book

After Her Winged Silence in the 80s, I vowed to never self-publish again. Hah! I’m doing it once more.

This upcoming book has seen many false starts since the 80s. But they honed the book—honed in on what it was meant to be and honed its words down to the project’s essence.

An early version was even shopped around in the 90s but, right after we sent it out, Publisher’s Weekly declared this sort of book dead. They were wrong, but the article killed my book.

The right book finally emerged, bit by bit.  It will be ready to print in a few weeks. I am indie producing it because it does not fall in line with corporate media.

There will be a limited 1st edition printing, each copy numbered. It will be 50-300 copies, depending on how much money I raise. (I don’t know if I’ll manage a second printing.)

Page count being limited by printing costs caused another eye-opener about what the book was meant to be: I saw I needed to apply my gift as a wordsmith and bard to writing small rich passages, instead of the long ones I first wrote for this project. Once you see the book, you’ll know why it needs succinctness to do its job. (Heh, a little teaser there!)

My hope and vision is an unusual format: a wee saddle-stitched (center-stapled) spiritual text with old-fashioned black and white ornamentations—which I have already painted—throughout its pages.

Whether I use any of the ornamentations depends on whether I receive enough donations, because ornamentation increases page count.

Please make a contribution so this project happens. I need help to pay printing and other publishing costs.

Donate $50. You reserve a numbered copy of this limited first edition printing. Go to www.paypal.com: Use outlawbunny@outlawbunny.com as the Recipients Email.

Donate $100 to reserve two numbered copies of this limited first edition. Plus, I’ll make a talisman channeled especially for you. Go to www.paypal.com: Use outlawbunny@outlawbunny.com as the Recipients Email.

Donate $250 for two early-numbered copies of this limited first edition. Plus a talisman channeled especially for you. I will also paint a digital fantasy portrait of you, or a pet, or a friend, suitable for online viewing as well as for sending to a printer if you want a hard copy. Go to www.paypal.com: Use outlawbunny@outlawbunny.com as the Recipients Email.

Donate $500. Receive two numbered copies, starting with #1, first come first serve. Plus an amulet, digital fantasy portrait, and a copy of The Ecstatic Goddess with a painted cover. Only ten copies of The Ecstatic Goddess—a self-published limited first edition—are still available. The book has a black and white cover, but I painted the cover of four copies. Two books with painted covers are available. This page will say when two people have donated $500, AKA the painted cover option is no longer available. Go to www.paypal.com: Use outlawbunny@outlawbunny.com as the Recipients Email.

Thank you for your support, because I cannot serve my community without my community’s support, Francesca De Grandis

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Trust the Singing in Your Cells

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Trust the Singing in Your Cells

 Humans are part of the earth. We too have a permaculture. We can know it authoritatively if we watch our bodies and spirits as patiently and analytically as a farmer watches sky and earth.

Food is a main way we take in nature’s healing gifts. Study your body’s needs. Study its interactions with both good food and pseudo-food. Trust the singing in your cells that wholesome food creates.

The above text is excerpted from an earlier blog, called Dandelion Blossoms: https://www.outlawbunny.com/2012/04/20/dandelion-blossoms/

Graphic: I took a snapshot while preparing dinner, took a screen shot of my typing, then combined them in Procreate. This is pretty primitive, but I believe in using what you have, until (if ever) you have better. Yay! (So I took a photo, even though I am not a photographer.) BTW, I just got Adobe Photoshop, guys. Between that and the fabulous Procreate, I am excited about what I can do now. Hey, just thought of something! Using what you have right now would be part of human permaculture. Heh!

Thanks so much for visiting!

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I Will Act

I will take tiny action during crisis, to avoid self-pity.

Am overwhelmed bc, as a crip, I cannot manage the massive number of survival things that must be done in a very small number of days. There is no choice about doing them or not, except for the choice to survive or not. Today’s plan: I choose to survive. I will know that as a choice, rather than feeling helpless amidst my crisis. Choosing survival = being pro-active amidst crisis. So instead of succumbing to the overwhelm, I will do one tiny thing at a time, one tiny quantitative act, in compassion for self and others, one tiny thing among all the things needed for survival, then the next tiny thing. Eg make one entry on the list of things to get. Thus I am proactive rather then overwhelmed by everything there is to do. I pray for help to focus on the moment, not the overwhelm or self-pity. God is bigger than all my problems. They are big, I will allow myself my feelings. Then I will remind myself that god is even bigger. I will live in god.

Choosing to survive also means that, today, I will do what is required to be sane and as calm as possible. E.g., Posting this blog makes me happy and more serene. If I let myself be constantly upset—and life will always give you an excuse to feel awful—I will not survive. Stress kills. Besides, when I am calm, I think clearer and get way more done in half the time.

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Calligraphing Phaedra

Phaedra, Detail. Calligraphy Handpainted on Silk, by Outlaw Bunny

Phaedra confessed that she has to buy anything with her name on it. I asked, “Does that mean, if I paint your name, you have to buy it?” She said, “Yes!”

So we discussed her budget, which she decided was $60, and you see the result.

I want you to see the pics at their best. When WordPress shrinks a pic to fit the page, it blurs. Please click on the small pics to see em unblurred; it makes a real difference.

Phaedra said to do it however I wanted. That’s awesome from a fellow artist, a true honor. She said she loves doings things this way because, when she give up control, the artist makes whatever they are inspired to make, and it is a surprise for her.

Phaedra, Detail. Calligraphy Handpainted on Silk, by Outlaw Bunny

I did ask for her fave colors, and whether she wanted a digital painting or a painting on cloth. I also inquired if there was anything else she wanted. She told me she likes her name elaborate, and girly in the sense of floral. Which is great for me as an artist, bc I love adding a lot of calligraphic ornamentation that is feminine or nature-oriented, as well as lots of little curlicues and the like. 

I chose to paint on a silk hoop to get maximum ornamentation.

I am happy with how this turned out. The colors I mixed came out well. And I love painting silk, colors become luminous on it.

I want to keep it, I love it, but what would I do with it? It is not my name! Or that of a deity I worship, LOL.

I’m honored by a commission from an artist. For some reason, half my commissions come from artists, which I think is really cool. 

I showed Phaedra the project in its early stages. I don’t always do that, because early stages are often misleading.

 

Phaedra, here are product details:

Hand painted silk on hoop, 9&1/2” across.

Phaedra, Detail. Calligraphy Handpainted on Silk, by Outlaw Bunny

My original design painted freehand, one-of-a-kind, initialed and dated by artist. 

Hang on wall. Or display a contemporary way: Lean it against a vase. Not for outdoor use. Before shipping, I’ll attach a string to hang it by.

Phaedra, if you are not 100% happy with the project, say the word. I want you to feel really good about buying this. If you do not, I am happy to paint you another or, if you prefer, drop the project.You will not lose a cent.

I even have a tiny bit of leeway in terms of redoing part of the painting. Can’t change a lot without a smeared mess developing, but I can change a bit.  

Just post your decision below. 

To my other guests, if you want to commission your calligraphed name, I would do it in a unique way, in whatever style the Muse guides me as right for you. I am virtually incapable of repeating my designs, so your painting would not look like Phaedra’s. 

Thanks for dropping by, everyone! Do comment to let me know you were here and what you think.

Phaedra, Detail. Calligraphy Handpainted on Silk, by Outlaw Bunny

Phaedra. Calligraphy Handpainted on Silk, by Outlaw Bunny

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Nature’s Wildness Is a Mandala

Nature's Wildness Is a Mandala, detail4, Francesca De GrandisHi, Andy, This wall-hanging is a thank you for doing my taxes. And for your patience with my confusion about navigating tax season. 🙂 

I call the piece “Nature’s Wildness Is a Mandala.” I am happy with how it turned out. (Artist living alone, needing to share her process.) I wanted the spiral to really move, and the vegetation to be wild. And the pink helped make it three-dimensional. 

Nature's Wildness Is a Mandala, Francesca De GrandisIf you know floral German folk art, you’ll see a bit of its influence here. Not that I try to do that style authentically. But a glimmer of its spirit has blessed my own. I grew up with two pieces of floral German folk art in my home. They were my father’s, and among my favorite childhood items. 

I want you to see the pics at their best. When WordPress shrinks a pic to fit the page, it blurs. Please click on the small pics to see em unblurred; it makes a real difference. 

If the painting is not right for your home, no problem, I will sell it and make you another. It is about 20″ X 20.”

Or you could keep it as a possible investment. An Amazon used-book dealer just sold a chapbook I self-published in the 80s. He got $205 for it (plus S&H, LOL!). It was only 64 pages and very funky – old style photocopy! Not that I got any of that $205. My point is that the painting might be an investment. 

Nature's Wildness Is a Mandala, detail7, Francesca De GrandisIt is Initialed and dated by artist. 

An aside, I gotta say: My current art and limited edition stuff barely gets noticed, which is ironic, especially if one compares my awful financial situation with the price that dealer got. And for some reason, people will not buy at that price from the actual author or artist, usually. It is weird. I take solace from the fact that William Blake, brilliant mystic though he was, died a pauper. Despite everything – finances, poor health, etc – I manage to still serve community. My life is weird, spelled W-Y-R-D! 

If it matters to you, I would sell it for $100 or more. 

Nature's Wildness Is a Mandala, detail2, Francesca De GrandisThat is a low price for a painting but that is the market. 

More info on the piece: Some people assume that, because i paint on cloth, i use stencils, patterns, or otherwise am copying. Be clear, this is my own design. Also, it is not, like some cloth art, a variation on something I vary over and over. I am a painter. I just happen to paint my pictures on cloth. 

Frame it, or use it a wall hanging. For the latter, put three loops of thread at the top – one on each end and one in the middle – and stick a pole thru them and hang the pole. 

Here is a picture of it 1/2 way finished. (Artist living alone, needing to share her process.)

 Or hang in a window (sun shines through it. Pretty! Though I bet sun fades it). Would look beautiful stitched to a throw-pillow cover. 

It is a bit hard to let go of, but my home does not have room for all my art. Plus it is important to me that my art be in other people’s homes. For one thing, I bless my artwork, this piece carries a blessing on it. So photos of it are my way of keeping it. 

I will enclose cleaning instructions should you ever need to clean it. 

Here is a picture of it later. Still lots to do though. I was going to add metallic paints, but threw out that idea and went back to original idea: adding several more colors and a good deal more detail. It was risky but fun. I don't want to play it safe, wld rather the project fall on its ass than be only so-so from playing it safe. Besides, if it ain't fun, why bother, it is not as if I will earn big bucks on it.

You can let me know below whether you want it, or email me about it. 

Much love and thanks to you, my fellow traveler of the cosmic spiral!
 
These are not all great pics. I had to shoot in the shade or wait til fall for diffused light. But check out Etsy feedback: Many of my customers post that my art is way better in person than in its photographs, adding that they’d even loved the photos. (Nice folks!)

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