God, Depression, a Magic Cat

God, Depression, a Magic Cat
For me, spirituality is not a luxury, I need it to survive.

Without God, my depression would be god, as would the world, in all its awfulness determining my fate, creating the whole of my inner and outer realms.

God relieves my futility by sending me a magic cat who, when I stroke its fur, gives me the will to live. 

God gives me another world that fills me with stardust, and Faerie powers that tickle my soul.

God sends me friends whose capacity for joy matches my own, so they lift me up out of my depression into my own heights. God sends me friends whose brilliant minds match my own, so we can run around in each other’s brains, getting high and almost frantically delighted like kids on sugar in a candy shop. 

Storyteller, Francesca De Grandis. For info about a limited first-edition print of this painting, click on it.

God sends me people to serve as a shaman and human being. To do so, I must, during that time, be in the real, not subject to society’s exclusion of everything but self-serving pettiness and dominance. No, during our work, I must move into the real. There, I can fly, I get to fly with the people I am serving, we can fly together in joy and utter certainty of life’s gorgeous meaning. 

God opens my eyes to ever-present beauty and sexiness and goodness in nature and in people. God plays tricks on me, so I laugh myself out of miserable self-absorption. 

Without God, my depression would be god, as would the world’s terrible truths. Nothing I am saying is a statement that, unless you believe in God, you are doomed. I am only talking about me. And, for me, God is not a luxury, my spiritual practices cannot be something “I have no time for, I am too busy just surviving,” because without God I will not have the will to survive.

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14 Responses to God, Depression, a Magic Cat

  1. Christina says:

    I just want to thank you for being authentic, brave and inspiring (among many other great traits). I myself am dealing with various issues and your post reminded me how often I feel a positiv “….” (I don’t know how I should name it) which lifts me up, soothes me, helps me to get going despite my fear, doubts. Sometimes it’s only a rush of a warm feeling, a stranger’s smile, a beautiful tune in the radio or a random phrase which pops up… and suddenly I feel whole, loved. And since I’ve read your books I feel it more often or more consciously.
    To sum it up, thank you for reminding me that someone is looking after me even if I’m busy being anxious, depressed or feeling ugly, unworthy and stupid.
    I hope you’re well and you have a great day!
    Sending you lots of love from Europe, Christina

    • Francesca De Grandis says:

      Christina, thank you for saying so many kind things. And welcome to my site. Your comment is interesting and heartfelt, which I find brave and really appreciate. And the part about “…a beautiful tune in the radio or a random phrase which pops up… and suddenly I feel whole, loved” is so reminiscent of the way I describe god guiding us. You read my books, so you know I talk about almost the exact same thing – how god talks to us through a random remark we overhear, or one that pops into our head, or a song on the radio, etc. Cool! I find it lovely that your experience is the similar to mine. Thanks again,and please do return to my blog and share more thoughts.

  2. Suzanne A. Spinelli says:

    I love your kitty with wings! And your blog! 😀

    Be Well Ma’am!

    (a/k/a Wils)

    • Francesca De Grandis says:

      Oh, thank you! I worked hard on painting that kitty, so am delighted you like it. And equally delighted you like the blog. You too be well.

  3. Serene says:

    Francesca I just adore you& your magical words.
    Thank you for sharing so candidly.
    I feel very similar & I too,wouldn’t be the same without my lover kitty-Boodha!

    • Francesca De Grandis says:

      Well, am I happy to meet you, you little flatterer! No, just joking. Except for the part about being happy to meet you,  I am really touched by yr words. Thank you so much. It is risk to be honest, so I apreciate yr support of it and yr udnerstanding of what I said. And I notice you call yr kitty Buddha. I wrote a piece, it is in my book Share My Insanity (info about the book is at https://www.outlawbunny.com/share-my-insanity-it-improves-everything/ ) about how my cat is the reincarnation of Buddha! If you read it, I like that you adopted it for yr kitty. If you did not read it, great minds think alike! 🙂 Thanks for dropping by, do come again! 

      • Serene says:

        I have read & really enjoyed that book as well as your Goddess books! Boodha was actually named before I read your share my insanity book…but the funny thing is he is a sleek back shorthair, who from the moment he was born,was the peacemaker & wise one among his 5 siblings & he had to be named boodha! So you can imagine my response to your stories of your buddha kitties!

  4. I love this post! It really resonates with me.

    • Francesca De Grandis says:

      I am so glad you relate to it! My posts don’t tote the party line, so it is always risky to post! Thanks for kind words!!!

  5. Dawn says:

    francesca you hold truth in your words! and worlds! your art progresses daily and inspires us all! someday i’ll be able to call you!! thank you for still being here to find!

    • Francesca De Grandis says:

      Dawn, you made my day with your note, thank you so much! Dawn, do i know you? The way you wrote to me is so familiar it makes me think we might know each other. On the other hand, sometimes I address someone in a very familiar tone, if I have read a piece of their work that is very personal and that I identify with. So maybe that is what you are doing with me. In which case, I am honored. Thanks again! And thank you just for reading one of my blog posts, i do not have words for what it means to me when someone drops by for a virtual visit!

  6. Julia says:

    THIS! YES!!!
    and I think I need a magic cat like that. perhaps with a hat… 😉

    • Francesca De Grandis says:

      What a lovely response, thank you, Julia! A hat would be good. Or a scarf, a flamboyant silk scarf!

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